Mindfully Blooming

(Written July 2019) With the month of July having started today and my birthday fast-approaching I decided to write a reflection on what I have learnt so far and how I see myself at this point in my life. ... Less than a week away now and I find myself in front of the screen decided to write down how I feel about celebrating another year of growth and wisdom, yes, wisdom. We can be so hard on ourselves and think that we are not wise enough in our thirties but I do feel I've learnt so much and grown exponentially as a result of a range of experiences and the rollercoaster that life can be (and that my life has indeed been.) I am deeply grateful for all these experiences, the ones that made me warmly smile with gratitude and the ones that made me cry in pain and despair; every single one has made me the person I am today and would never change anything as that is my life, my journey, my experience in this lifetime.  If I briefly look back, ten years ago, for example, I w...

Above all I rise,  Above all I trust.  Above all I seek the truth, The magic in the sky,  The light in the stars,  The harmony in the wild.  Bless me with your winds,  Clean me with your waters,  Remind me I am one with the earth and the sun; Allow me to fall and stand up again.  Nothing lost, all won.  In the shade and the darness,  In the brightness of the sun,  Remind me I am one with the earth and the sun.  Above all I grow,  Above all I allow.  Above all I surrender;  The serenity in nature,  The truth in tears of joy and sadness,  The love in it all.  Bless me with your colours,  Surround me with your essence,  Remind me I am one with the earth and the sun.  Allow me to soar high and crash low,  Ebb and flow, high and low.  Nothing lost, all won.  Living a blessed life Among the fellow earthlings In t...

Standing on my toes to reach your mouth you're hugging me hard and stroking my smile; It feels so natural to be by your side, together in this chapter of our blessed lives. Five dates it's been But feels longer somehow, you said you felt you knew me deeper than that.  Three weeks apart, could not stop kissing and hugging hard.  We plan adventures, We hold hands,  Smiling at each other,  I feel I could trust... I could trust your smile,  I could trust those beautiful eyes,  Your kindness and care,  Your embrace and your mind.  Sometimes far away,  It feels like worlds apart,  Like not living within the same day,  Though our hearts do still hug. It does not discourage me,  It does not hold me back,  It makes me want to try harder, It makes me want to Keep hugging your heart. I know not what will happen But deeply trust the universe's plan.  Like kids we sm...

How many times have we felt awkward? How many times have we felt that we do not belong? Have many times have we put ourselves in situations we did not want to be in just because we did not know how to say 'no'? I've definitely been there. When I was younger, I used to be -sometimes painfully- shy, I would struggle with making decisions and considered myself rather introverted but I only understood that side of my being years later. I definitely bloomed as time went by but I am still a proud introvert and I embrace my full self.  A couple of years ago I came across Dr. Brené Brown who really shifted many of my perceptions and has given me a clearer, more real lense through which to look at myself and the world around me. In Braving the Wilderness, she wrote,   'Once we belong thoroughly to ourselves and believe thoroughly in ourselves, true belonging is ours .'  When I finished reading that line, I read it again. And again. And again. It resonated so much with me th...

Round and round w e go in life But not if we learn to open our eyes,  To willingly step on the side of the path  And m indfully reflect on what has been and why.  To learn, to reflect, to grow Can help you stop the Wheel of anesthetised ‘flow’. How can I do that? How will I know? ‘Oh’, says the universe, ‘You’ll know. You’ll reach that point, Some things will click, You’ll see with new eyes What was amiss;  The things that You ignored before Will come to the front  And the faded colours Will morphe And shake you to the ground. 'It'll be day and night,  Black and white, Ying and yang,  You'll smile a big smile.'  So now trust, surrender, allow. Things come and go  But nothing can break the balance apart If you do not let it And act from the heart.  It takes time, it takes energy and trust But, oh, it is so worth it...it always h...

Things have changed, I moved on. Amidst the falling, dust and rising, I found myself and my own love. Still the same essence inside But with glitter all around, I glide through life Learning lessons along the line. People, places, experiences Have taught me to live and try, To venture, to love and allow. Where would I be had I not tried? Where would I be had I not Left my land behind? My being here today is part Of a cosmic, divine master plan, Amongst the stars I shine, Amongst the lights I dance. Dark clouds engulf me sometimes But not so much now. I see beauty and growth in it all, In my dreams, fears and doubts Because I know you’re behind, In front and holding my hand. There is no fear, only love and light. Breathe and smile, surrender and allow.

Wish I could run, wish I could hide, Wish I could remain under the stars. Scared not, fearful not but At points feeling trapped in this invisible house. I did feel free running wild, Dancing to the beat of my own sounds. At points lost, at points found, Always seeking peace and love; Always finding truth in the stars, Magic in the sky, smiles all around The walls of my mind. Easier to choose the kind, the gentle And the loving side of the world all around. The life I choose to live, The hugs I choose to give, The time invested in what always brings joy to me.