Mindfully Blooming

  ‘Remember that the key thing about life on earth is change.’ Matt Haig ~ The change, the shift; The jumping, the leap.  Longing for something healing and true,  Leaving behind the falling, dark blues.  Committing to what brings me joy, To what helps me be fully me requires Determination and the choice to fully breathe. So I do. Not every day is easy, Sometimes I gasp for air But the choice to breathe is there And I take it with me everywhere. I thrive in the certainty that I am not alone: The ones before my time walk by my side And so do the angels that ascended and Followed the light.

  Sometimes it feels  Like there's a wild, scary, relentless  Monster running inside of me; It bounces off the thin walls and Wreacks havoc wherever it falls.  Scares me deeply, this tiny giant that  Seems to not want to go away.  Whatever I do to feel better,  It always manages to pop up, Is this part of being human enough?  But I despair not as I  s it on the grass And breathe in the pure air.  Maybe it'll understand that it is okay to let me go  And let me breathe peacefully alive. When the clouds draw in, There's one thing to do first: Breathe, deeply breathe,  Reminding myself that I'm beautifully alive  And striving to keep shining bright. 

  Held by the feather bed,  the girl dreamt big.  She knew no limitations, h er mind was a colourful abyss; Rainbows and dazzling lights, d reams galore all around. No fear, no doubt, just pure  love & healing light. The girl grew up, s he started losing faith, The hurtful voices  in her head b ecome louder with each passing day. People around poked stares at her soul. She retrieved, she doubted herself, Her smile faded, s he paled, she recoiled in her shell. The world become gray and dark, Where had her soul's dreams gone to hide? She soon found out  The same had happened to many dreamers around; Their colourful dreams Had been burnt alive and silenced with a hush.  But she gathered her strength, s he connected to herself, She knew no one could take her light a way; She was the one in charge o f her dreams in all the shades. She moved forward, s he swam across lakes; She marvelled at new ideas, s he envisioned many landscapes. Cynical critics fear...

  When I look at the dusk, night sky,  I often wonder what's beyond The visible worldly sights,  feeling like a unique alien on my own Earth home. There's a lingering feeling of darkness and void, feel like something is calling me back to another ethereal, harmonious home.  Homesick for a place I do not know, Curious about the stars and planets  high above the ground of this earthly, alluring soil. A being of the sky, Celestial soul travelling the stars. I landed on this planet,  fear was all around. I tried to integrate To dance, to share my love.  Held back by wars, held back by hate, Trapped, not grounded enough yet. Light abandoned my soul,  It decided to run away. But then it came back,  Certain it was all a lesson on this land. Not to despair but to deeply learn A soul from both worlds Navigating the lessons On the infinity and edge of both homes.

  Dare dream, dare not let the soul die, You were born wild and free, You are made of stars. Face forward darling one and look at the mesmerising sky; You're always being guided But sometimes it slips your mind. Do not despair, be kind to your heart; See the signs all around and  Trust your intuitive gut. Follow the exciting breadcrumbs In your gloriously unique path,  they'll lead you to your haven, they'll lead you to a fulfilling life. But trust, please trust that you're exactly where you are meant to be right now. 

  Behind the glass I see myself Trapped within the thin layer Of the shadows of yesterday. Screaming to cross over, The time does not arrive, It keeps moving further away,  What am I doing with my life? I hope, I dream, I wait; Waiting for tomorrows that  Become yesterdays. Frail figure, the ghost of my hopes, It floats around smiling at  Passersby in coats. Dying to get out,  To explore, to feel alive. When will the spring arrive?  When will the wild flowers sway like the clouds in the ethereal sky?

  This part of me That resides in the dark Feels tempted to jump,  To leave behind The effort, the achievements And to banish the light. This part of me that wishes to hide Struggles to speak up, To shine, to fight. But this part of me  Also teaches me stuff Like how to overcome the darkness, How to cry, How to stay alive When the shadows arrive;  How to ask for help, How to hug love tight, How to trust there'll be an end To the lows of this rollercoaster life. This part of me knows  I wouldn't appreciate light  If dark was not around Because this part of me knows  That balance is key to a fulfilling life. 

  In the infinity of our existence We acknowledge the growth  Through pain and rebirth;  It's all about love. Precariously dangerous our mindset can be If we stay confined within our fearful being. However, those that dare dream and try Are blessed with the magic of the adventurous ones. Afraid perhaps but curious enough  To venture into the wildness of the expansive alive.  How freeing, how magically we thrive In the ether of this universe  We create the sparks that abound.

  What was pushed outside Was no shocking surprise, Lingering darkness Unwillingly hosted inside.  Deliriously knocking to storm out, Frustrated to have been locked and tied.  No one knows where it'd been hiding all this time  But the roaring shadow beheaded the smiles.     So desperate to see, so desperate to know.  What if we let go?  What if we release control?  Bursting inside, the tightness compressing my soul.  Want to be free but afraid to not know.  But if you really notice, it's more noise than drums,  The menacing ones are smaller than crumbs;  They bravely shout, roar and torment the innocent ones.  Yet why can’t I breathe, dear one? 

  I n the outbreak of it all The shadows hung heavily low;  They terrorised us mortals,  They burnt our homes.  Trapped in the unknown,  We walked for days;  Darkness all around,  We wandered in a haze. But we soon realised  That darkness was inside.  That we’d mistaken its residence,  We’d been blinded all this time.  We realised us humans Made a habit of welcoming the dark, But we clung to the shadows  Because we thought it wouldn’t hurt our hearts.  Eventually we learnt,  The light we started letting in; In the break of the dawn, We let the shadows withdraw.  It is said they coexist,  That they peacefully play,  That they’re actually friends,  Constantly reminded by Night and Day.  Not to be feared but to be embraced,  The balance of life is found In the appreciation of the shades And the ebbing of wild waves.

On the other side of darkness Lie the fireflies of light;  Stars across the pathway,  Guiding you to the sun.    Perhaps engulfing But never forever lasts,  Darkness eventually fades,  Allowing the light to shine.    Overwhelmed you might be But dear one trust,  Trust the light will overpower the shadows And growth you'll embrace on this path.    Never alone,  You'll draw strength from the ones you love;  The universe will have your back And with sweet certainty you'll smile.    Never doubt yourself However big the scars, You're stronger than you think Look behind and acknowledge how far you've come.