Mindfully Blooming

At the end of the tunnel You'll find the light Alluringly calling you in, You'll recognise the why. Do not fear it dear one, It's leading you to your dharma, Your joyful, aligned life.   No time to waste, o nly love to give,  Space to create,  smiles to receive.  This journey will take you places. Embrace the downs,  It all adds to the magic You're sharing in the wild. Hard sometimes To face the shame but If you don't venture into the unknown And curiously explore, you'll lose the thirst to grow and be bold. 

  Disgustedly I stared myself in the mirror, I picked apart the assumed flaws of my unique self; Rejection was standing there, Why couldn't I love myself?  Indoctrinated I'd been,  Forced to believe  There was something to hate  In my beautiful, unique being.  Lost in thought, Still stared at the inexistent flaws, The ones I'd been made to believe  That were the reason for my hopeless soul. Ownership I took, My thoughts became clearer, There was nothing wrong,  It was an illusion created by the media. With new eyes, I observed myself. How could've I hated my human flesh?  Strong and resilient my body had always been Yet for longer than I wanted to acknowledge I'd stepped on it, torn it to shreds, tossed it in the bin.  No longer though I'd look at myself the same way. I'd now celebrate my strength,  The signs of laughter  and every part of my glorious, human self.  I would listen no more to those who Did not believe in me,...

 Once I wished  I could've gone back to square one, Maybe I would've done things differently, I would've spoken my mind from the start. I wouldn't have broken to pieces But  would I have learnt to cry? There'd be no point in disregarding a lesson in time. We bend, we break, we shatter in the night sky But it is so valuable to learn how to shine after the dark.  We crumble, we spiral down into the abyss of night But we also learn to laugh while we cry. We learn that tears lead to a moment of light, The recognition that we are beautifully alive.

  Wither away, Fall to the ground,  Allow the layers to be shed and burnt down. Do not hold on tight It is healthy sometimes to release and allow; Trees show you how easy it is to just let go of the past. Easier said than done,  Sometimes we grab on tight Forgetting we're hurting ourselves, Little tiny cuts throughout.  Nature does not despair though,  It keeps revealing time after time, Obvious to the eye If we pause for a breath in time. 

  Breakdown to breakthrough,  She learnt to breathe again, She shed layer upon layer of heavy yesterdays. Nothing was perfect, s ometimes they'd show up, In the corners o f her frightened mind, She'd see them committing crimes. But she'd sacredly pause, she'd breathe alive, Eventually, she'd bravely set them alight. Like a bonfire i n a cold, November night, The shadows would always burn to the ground.  Relentlessly stubborn, they wouldn't give up  But she was always stronger Than t he overwhelming avalanche.  Within her soul she knew, She'd carried the strength of those Who'd come before and  had left in dark June. She wouldn't be defeated by the ominous dark, She'd bravely fight and take its mask down; She'd challenge the shadows to be exiled far And forever be banished under the searing sun.  Her light was magnetic, her commitment strong, Deep inside she'd always known She'd one day create the life she was born for.  She'd alwa...

  I want to feel the rain on my bones, I want to feel the pain of my soul, It reminds me I am human enough, Don't want to run away and leave wisdom untouched. The darkest days always teach me how  To overcome the haunting shadows all around. Breaking down, standing up, Strong enough to  Breathe, move forward and thrive. I'm learning blue, I'm growing tall, Don't want to bury and teary ignore The lessons for my eager, expansive soul, The possibilities in this joyful life stroll. Heart-breaking oftentimes, no denying that, No point to pretend that it's all pink and bright, But the darkest, deep blues teach me how to feel alive. I grow wings that take me far,  Across rivers, oceans and mountains afar. I fly, deep dive and soar high, I course-correct, trip over and fall But I always choose to grow and to thrive,  I choose to feel bruised but profoundly alive.

  No one would believe  She'd often cry herself to sleep; They couldn't see past her mask,  She had to pretend  So she smiled and smiled. Her heart kept knocking Within the confines of her chest,  Her soul kept screaming,  Her strength slowly faded away. Pushing things down, She kept f acing each day Until one Tuesday night  She burst into flames.  The burden had been too heavy  To withhold within her tiny chest;  Ashes spread everywhere Her world became hollow and grey. No one could understand, What had happened to her smile; Not knowing what to say They stayed away from her darkened self. She eventually started to smile To the sky, moon and stars above her crown She'd learnt to heal, she listened, she'd sometimes venture out; The confines of her mind had kept her captive for a long time But she was now ready to bravely own her light. She knew she could help others In her humble truth she stood; Neither fear nor the shadows Would keep h...

  Nothing else matters If I hold myself; Tears may be shed  But in the uncertainty of this gray today I have my own sacred self.  Worlds will collapse,  Leaves will be shed dead, The sky will cry red And yet there's nothing to fear In the safety of my own grounded self.  Through the depth of the darkness  In the void of my bed, I might shake, cry, tear and break Yet nothing can destroy my peace For I know I'll always come back  To my divine, unique self.  Haunted and terrorised by the  Rushing thoughts that flood my  Mind, I might freeze and despair but it's a matter of time  Till I bring myself back to my breath, Back to my eternal self.

  Standing in front of the towering trees The girl stared in awe and bliss; She was fascinated with the cracks, the moss, the bark, How could nature be so beautiful in the details at hand? The world dazzled her with the colours all around. Oftentimes she stood and she stared Lost in the magic of the falling leaves hitting the lair, In the contrast of the earthy colours And the ethereal shades of the early morning sky; The sun shone and reminded her how amazing  It was to be alive in that moment in time. Nudged to slow down, she cried tears of joy, She rejoiced in the knowledge she was never alone. Pumpkins, ochres, and dramatic leafy reds, It was the season to pause and shed the layers of yesterday. The robin perched itself on the neighbour's gate, They stared at each other, the girl knew it was fate; The reminder of the full circle of the dream she had dreamt  In the night of many yesterdays, Blissfully aware of the present day. 

  Instinctively I knew,  Viscerally I felt the due fued.   The shadows would make a return, They would always do. They would want the attention, They'd viciously tear me down  But I was determined not to  Let them run manic and wild.  'Wishful thinking' they'd say But I wouldn't let them  Get away with the threat. Stronger I became, They hissed to my face But in my truth I stood, The fire burnt in the flame.  Neither shadow nor demon Could overthrow my peaceful reign  For I knew that I'd bring myself  Back to the calm and ease  Of the grounding breath In the centre of my Earth.  

  Where you are is exactly right, Standing there guided by the stars. At points in despair, you'll look around, You'll think you're lost, you'll cry at what is around. But you're exactly in your place my love,  Just keep committing to what makes you feel alive; Life will continue unfolding And your actions will shine bright,  They'll be a lighthouse  To your desires and the unfolding  Of your aligned dharma and your sacred path. 

  You are my home,  You are everything sunshine In a grey world;  You are my life as I like knowing it and It feels like the world was a boring shade Before we said hello .  You are my favourite person and The life we've shared till this moment of gold Is everything I've known to want, to long for, To hold close to my hopeful soul. 

  Snowflakes on my lips, sunshine on my face, Bitter wind on my eyes, my hands recoil in my pockets. I walk dreaming away the fractures of my breath, Thinking you’re staying away,  Sitting on the edge, afraid to take the leap;  Breaking my faith, inaction crumbling my mind.  It hurts my heart, it hurts my soul,  Crystalising pain, tempting every time to run away. A snowflake my heart is, Slowly melting away.

  Can we make it our own?  The days pass and I feel alone.  Heavy on my shoulders The burden lies. The dreams sometimes are dreams And the nights, dark empty nights.  At arm's length, f rozen in place; Uncertain of us, n ot knowing why. Paralysed with fear My throat is stuck, No words seem to come out Though dying inside. Love you so much, though betraying my heart; You won't speak out, My heart crying for the future of us. 

  'What really happened...' was The story we kept telling ourselves, From the small confines of our fearful heads; The ego would never let us believe there was another way. ' The head knows best' , it said all the time Secretly terrified to lose power,  To be pushed aside and banished to the dark.  Quietly whispering though intuition  Never let go of us: It told us, reminded us, even begged us at times Not to give up on our truthful hearts. Oftentimes on a sunny, autumn morning with ochres, reds and oranges shining bright,  We will feel head and heart going up and down On the see-saw that can be our lives; We'll feel like we are on the sidelines Staring at these complex creatures, Indulging in an extended dialogue of who is right. But guess what darling one?  They are both part of who we are.  We'll smile at both, we'll thank them for caring for us; Ego will defeatedly walk away though head will still  Stay in the shade, not to dismiss it but to ...