Mindfully Blooming

There's beauty in the natural unfolding of unrushed things; in the slowing down, in the surrendering, in the darkness, in the sometimes necessary crumbling. There's beauty in the sacred unfolding of that which is meant for us, not without action and alignment But with trust that As we take aligned steps from a place of authenticity, love and trust, that which we're meant to create, those people we're meant to meet, the places (physical and spiritual) we're meant to inhabit in this lifetime will not miss us. As we continue walking our path, doing the work and embracing our healing journey, may we remember we're always held, always loved, always guided. We're loved, we're love, we're the universe in human form; Stardust and light made of flesh, blood & bones.

Heavy dark days I've walked; the fog is thick, the clouds know I'm lost, I'm not me. Spiraling and traveling down, the dark valley welcomes me with a hug and a  Fading smile. Like a comforting mother, darkness reminds me sometimes it's necessary To reconnect to the ghosts we thought had crossed over to the light, That being in and with darkness reminds us of the duality of life: Darkness and light cannot be apart and In the fertile void of the darkness, the unknown, the fear, the tears, the chaos unfolding Beneath the surface, there's still life, there's still hope.  Darkness cradles my face, I'm not afraid. I'm just tired and darkness knows. It lets me cocoon in the safety of the unseen and unknown, knowing with certainty I'll eventually hug myself, lovingly and with faith stand up to gratefully walk out of the  dark valley. Truth and love hold my hands, side by side, they encourage my every hopeful step; In truth, in love, in faith, fireflies start...

Meeting -lower case c and Capital C- challenges along the way,  I met myself: my full, deep, shadowy, dark, Sparkly, proactive and anxious self.  All of the facets, all of the pride and shame,  All of the debilitating anxiety,  All of the faith in myself.  Overwhelmed and then reassured,  I was always guided along the way,  Even though at times I felt alone, I was always supported, held, loved. 

May the inhale be an invitation to receive, To open up to the sacredness of life, To welcome expansion,  To welcome nourishment,  To welcome love. And may the exhale be a reminder of how sweet it can be To release and give yourself permission to unclench, To sigh out, to let go, to release anything That no longer serves you,  And everything you're ready to drop. you're a human being, breathe.  You're a human being, be. 

 My throat bleeds the words she doesn't speak. The inflicted silences guarding my mouth, The constriction around my neck Like a snake silencing me tight; The shackles, the fire, the smoke Tearing me, burning me down; A hand choking me, water filling my lungs, Smoke seeping in through my nostrils  And I just want to unapologetically, wildly Scream and shout. I want to speak my pure, raw truth, I want to heal and guide and align,  Connect with sisters, and devotionally chant;  Honour the Great Mother, and be held in her light,  Humbly serve the aligned path without fear  Of the silencing of the words of my heart;  Know in safety, devotion, connection my path lies and with love and light abound, Nurture a community of aligned souls of the light,  And a witch and goddess be.  

Lingering on the edge a bit too long  I fell down a deep rabbit hole;  Unbeknownst to me  I'd been there before only I didn't  Remember the winding corners of the  Dark maze that my mind wouldn't let go of. Holding tightly, it felt like a safety blanket,  The devilish whispers that drew me closer  To self inflicted soul pain each time.  Until one enlightened day I suddenly realized  That it was I who had the ultimate power to  Drop the rope and let go or, rather, Hold on tightly to pull myself up and out of The entanglements that kept my mind numb.  Greeted by the blinding light as I got out I realised, once again, that the warmth that welcomed me back Was non-judgemental and kind,  Boundless and unconditional love.  I decided that, every time I shut down,  I'd breathe, I'd lean in and allow the darkness  Through and out of me. Yes, the shadows were  Part of who I was but so was the light.

And like that, we will hold you, And like that, we will guide you. Rest, my child, you're safe, Close your eyes, and know you're enough. Tender love, that's what you are.  Nothing to do, just be. Know you're guided and that life unfolds FOR you, Know you're loved and forever held.

In the eye of the storm she found herself, shaking, exhausted, shocked, in pain.  Blazing guns of noise and smoke had c louded her judgement of self; However, u nwavering determination to get back to the light propelled her away,  Away from  self- destruction and the endless cuts, bruises and blood she'd often shed.  The truth was, she was tired of fighting herself and in the glimpses of magic  She'd sometimes see whenever she looked at the sky, she could recognise a Familiar place she'd once emerged from. This ethereally peaceful place kept  Calling her back but at the time the demons would force her to shut her eyes tight.  Source knew she's eventually remember that all the pain wasn't punishment but   Lessons she'd agreed to learn on Earth, source also knew she'd find her way back to  The teachers and tools that would illuminate her way, reminding her she was a wise  soul f irst and foremost, not just blood and flesh; she was stronger...

In your wholeness I saw you,  And in your darkness I embraced you; Whole, pure, striking, dark and mysterious,  You were everything and nothing to the physical eye But you were more than the extremes And everything in between.  I saw myself reflected in you; oftentimes I asked you If you could teach me about me. I deeply believed that, as you changed, I changed; Every month an undeniable visual reminder That I was also changing on a moment to sweet moment basis And that it was s afe to embrace every shard of darkness and every blinding beam of light. I was e ncouraged by you to dance with both sides of me, And not to fear the unknown that  Happened in the sometimes blinding dark nights of my mind and soul. Because of you, I allowed myself to fully surrender my breath, To let out a howl and a deep sigh, To beam under your light, To let a watery pearl run down my face because I was Struck by your beauty to my soft core, The flesh and bone and blood cor...

Today you're okay, today you're safe, and thriving; today you've had a good day and today you're loved. There's nothing you have to  do , just be. In your beingness you're blessed with expansion and alignment. When you obsess about all the details, you constrict yourself, you cap your growth, you clip your wings. But you're meant to fly beautiful one, you're meant to soar high up into the pinks and blues and darks of the sky, into all the colours, and directions and depths of the sky above; through valleys and jungles, and deserts and cities.  You're here to experience it all, to  feel  it all. But the more you think, the more you numb, you shut down and the more you fear but, why fear?  Love, love it all! The hard, the ugly, the breathtaking; the pure and the impure, the light and the dark; the beauty and the tears for it is all meant to be experienced.  Breathe. Each time, breathe and feel. Breath will anchor you in whatever it is you're experi...

Celebrating nature's seasons and my soul seasons, I realised and gave myself permission to fully embrace life. I realised, seemingly all of a sudden, that life was so intricate and that Each natural season could teach me endlessly about myself too.  This I knew but I'd forgotten.  Just like my cycle aligned with the moon phases, So too could I integrate the truth that, if nature had cycles and patterns and ebbs and flows, I could show myself grace and deep kindness every time I  navigated something new or the same thing I had experienced multiple times  before because I had to learn something new. Expansion and contraction became a new mantra, A new anchoring phrase, a new  way of living that brought forgiveness and ease.  Why had I punished myself so viciously for relapsing into anxious states When in reality I knew well that healing wasn't a linear, smooth, pristine path? I knew healing could be ugly, and messy...

October was waving goodbye when anxiety stubbornly decided to pop by. Out of nowhere, it pranced and sat on my chest,  Unapologetically digging its claws and refusing to walk away.  I could not catch my breath, a nightmare while awake.  Negotiation was null and void- no point even trying to beg it to go.  Even though my mind was refusing to accept anxiety was back again,  My soul lovingly reminded me that healing was a winding road,  With turns, and obstacles, and detours; definitely not a linear path. Wanting once again to retreat into a dark cave wasn't going to  Bring peace and ease or healing and forward momentum; I'd learnt  The more I got to know myself that I couldn't reduce myself to  Anxiety's childish and selfish level, I had to allow it to be and express itself;  Regardless of how negatively I perceived it to be, it actually was  Reminding me of the things I had to yet heal.  With much patience and willingness to wan...

I thought I had to go, n o point in staying,  My heart was begging f or me to listen to t he whispers a nd intuitive nudges. The storm had been unfolding, l ightning threatening the horizon,  Thunder kept growing louder and louder;  I thought I was just  s kin and bones, flesh and blood. But eventually I realised I was also magic and light alive   And I couldn't help being reminded, every time I breathed,  That I was worth each breath on Earth, That my soul had a purpose here,  That I was yet to fully embody it all.  That's how I embarked On the peeling of layers of my sacred healing journey.  And how my awareness sweetly developed; Staying stuck in the rejection of my sacredness and  Goddess beingness wasn't an option anymore.  Rejection of self, rejection of my humanity, rejection of  My sacred womb and ancestral trauma had made me disconnect Deeply from one simple truth: I was nature, loved and eternal.  My healing had ...

I lost myself and then I found me again.  Breath following me around  Reminding me to fully let it in; I'd forgotten how to be, forgotten I was human.  It felt easier to dissociate  And numb it all out; I belonged to a different galaxy:  Starseed living a human life  And I struggled to blend in Only because I was meant to stand out. Light inside, darkness too, Humanity was heavy and I cocooned; Couldn't wait to return to what it felt like home, Thousands of light years away And ethereally calling me back. 

Worlds were collapsing and so was I, in my mind I had nowhere to run  So I decided to face the debris and smothering, dark clouds.  Smoke, coughing, not knowing what was going on; Fear joined briefly for a while and I knew I had to let it be,  No point in pretending I was brave then But my faith had taught me I was immensely stronger than I would give myself credit for; darkness had engulfed me before  And I'd made it alive so I'd keep embracing the parts of me that  Were pure, eternal, strong and bold.  Smoke eventually dissipated, shy flames died down; I realised that I was standing on solid, breathing grounds. Foundations were charred but the earth was alive, Teaching me that fire would always bring nourished new life. I stopped fearing, I befriended pain, I knew  I couldn't keep running away from The lessons   I was meant to embrace. I sat with the heaviness  Of my chest, I let it be. Eventually, it dawned on me that The beauty of my...

In the sacredness and nourishment of our womb,  We burn bright and thrive aligned;  We shine from deep within, we connect to the source of it all.  Cherishing our womb, we celebrate the sweetness of this portal,  The waters that are and give life, the blood that is our power,  The sanctuary of our sacred soul.  We cherish and honour our goddess energy, we tune in to the elixir of life; In our sacred chalice we receive divine guidance , We create and co-create with higher power, We savour and delight in the sweetness and pleasures;  We cry, we moan, we succumb to the pulsations of life In the contraction and expansion that is this sacred universe.  We honour the ebb and flow of the sacred waters,  We retreat and then we shine, We are reminded that light follows darkness and that  Healing, however  imperceptible , is happening on a Moment t o sacred, rageful, blissful moment basis.    

The Earth shook and things fell, Crumbling down to the foundations of what they used to be.  I knew then nothing had been in vain for the process of  Lovingly building what was had showed me the power Of mindful and soul-led creation.  What was beautiful back then had started cracking naturally,  Not because of faults but because something more beautiful  Was emerging.  I'd learnt to let the cracks reveal themselves so that I could  Witness the layers underneath.  Not always comfortable but I knew that patching things up Defeated the purpose of the unbound and emerging truth of Nature and creation.  I'd learnt that there was deep beauty in the imperfections And the natural flow of sacred unfolding.  I was profoundly grateful for the crumblings,  The shaking, the darkness, the valleys, the cracks That were revealing to me I was a wild, sacred one. 

  Let me walk hand in hand with you my child, Let me feed and caress your soul, I'm mother earth,  The cradle and essence of everything that is  Pure, aligned, and unfolding with love.  Surrender to me, and let me carry you to peace, bowing down to your true essence, to the earth beneath.  Wash in my rivers, feed from my fruit, celebrate your Divinity and my mystic magic, sun and moon.  Intertwined in the ether we live, you and me.  You are me and I am you and with the blessing of the universe we flow with and in eternal love.  When you feel disconnected, remember to walk barefoot,  Feel the rain, look at the sky and breathe the air; dance around  the fire, let heaviness go, celebrate you human aliveness even when Darkness k nocks on your door. It's all unfolding for your highest expansion.  Trust in the journey, savour what each day brings, keep coming back  to your breath, anchoring force to be. 

Walk towards the light even when the dark is all around you.  Trust that all experiences are helping you expand. (They are even when we can't see it.) Be reassured in each brave step you take,  For you're never on your own, eternally supported by light. At times daunting, oftentimes overwhelmed, Perhaps you often felt you no longer wanted to be here  On this human plane; p erhaps the heaviness you feel Is a sign you're more s oul than human but still chose to be here To experience t he full spectrum of humanity and the intensity of  your human flesh and blood, and the aches and pains. But it all meant you also got to enjoy and delight yourself In the beauty, the magic, the connection, the joy, the  Savourable and exquisite existence of your human vessel. Trust you're one of the lucky ones who got to Incarnate and live on the haven that is  Planet Earth.  Your human life is sacred and exquisite,  Embrace each nourishing experience,  The light ...

Seemingly stranded on planet Earth  I found myself one day,   Unaware I was to learn yet more lessons That'd unravel my highest expansion yet. Reluctant at points, I unwillingly walked  Forward through each human phase.  Unaware I was falling more and more in love With the resilient race and the love they exuded, I found beauty in the mundane. I learnt to intertwine the ethereal Throughout e ach sacred day, learning that was The one sweet way to cultivate love over  Losing myself in the dark skies ahead.  Heaviness lingered heavily in my chest  Upon experiencing the challenges of the  Souls that incarnated on this human plane But trust in the only universal force Encouraged me not to return to source Before I could walk further down the human road.  Beauty, beauty, beauty on planet Earth Kept me anchored and grateful for  Nature, for kindness and for grace;  The raw and the real of the deep pain  Would eventually heal stro...