Raw Anxiety Poem: Darker Dark

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Run away,                                             

Far,

     Far,

            Far.

Disappear,

Leave 

         all 

             the pain  

                           behind. 

How easy it'd be

To not face the blinding dark, 

To emerge on the other side 

Where I can once again smile.

It's painfully hard to breathe 

No longer know how to feel alive.

I've asked for help

Though now I feel

Like retrieving into darker dark.

But that'd be umbearable 

And would destroy the life

I used to love. 

Easier said than done

To face my demons, to undig the past, 

To face fears, to process the dark.

It's hard, it's painful.

I want nothing 

But 

      Peace 

               And 

                      Light. 





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